In the Mind

Today, we were interviewing potential new members and this one guy was just for sure not going to get in but he was very interesting to interview. It wasn't just that he had this very depressing background story of his life but the way he expressed this story made him a very interesting character to probe. Of course, he would really need help, like professional help, to help him get out of the torture he is stuck in. The thing was, he was really stuck in his head about everything. His mind wandered from topic to topic and not too focused on a coherent topic. But disregarding all of that and focusing on the aspect that he really needed help, is to realize that all of us, are all just in some ways crying out for help though we are hesitant to admit it. It pains us and we all try to keep in but it expresses itself in many ways that are out of our control.


Going onto another topic, ahahah, do you know why change is so hard? I mean, it's not impossible but like why it's really really fucking hard? Well for one, considering our normal body's homeostatic mechanisms, we have a tendency to achieve and retain equilibrium. BUT, that's just a nerdy way to simply say we really like to just stay in our comfort zone. It is this fact on top of the notion that when most people like me, for instance, want to make a change, we go by impulse but not by true discipline. In other words, we have these whims or temporary impulses that drive us to change. But do they last? No, of course they don't. They are feelings, they are temporary emotions that seem to just burn at at a sight of disappointment but flicker out when those emotions are washed away. When you really want to change, there are moments when you do have the hard times and you have that fighting emotional momentum to pass through them. However, what's even harder then all of these times are those moments when you are happy because you are content and you might just end up slacking for a little and end up eating a fatty food when it was just a whim, that that feeling won't have a big impact on you. Or what's even worse is when you are bored. At these moments, you don't have the emotional momentum to just fight through the temptations, you just have nothing stimulating you or motivating you to keep your commitment to change. It's these anticlimactic moments that are really hard to endure these changes, that are so underestimated in the attempting to change.